This post is a few days late because it happened on Saturday night with a bit of a push from my partner but it has taken me 2 days to calm down from it.
To a lot of people this will mean nothing but for me this was a huge achievement because what I faced was one of my biggest fears form being a toddler.
Don’t get me wrong I’m still absolutely petrified but I did it for my baby girl.
We went to watch the lights switch on where my mum and dad live and it’s a little village, very cute it’s name is Slaithwaite.
You probably haven’t heard of it because to be honest until they moved there I had never heard of it either.
But anyway back to the Christmas lights switch on it was surprisingly very good but the most strange and for me petrifiying thing was the fact that Pikachu switched on the lights.
The reason it was so scary for me was I have a huge fear of people dressed up in costumes even if I know them.
I didn’t know Pikachu personally so I find that a lot worse honestly I was close to passing out.
I then saw my daughters face light up when she saw Pikachu and at first I was adamant I was not going over and that my partner would have to take her.
I then saw how excited she got and how much she wanted to go over it brike my heart that I was holding her back.
So with a lot and I mean a hell of a lot of persuasion me, milly and my partner slowly went over my heart was racing so much I wanted to cry.
But Milly absolutely loved it and I did it!
I’m not in any rush to do it again anytime soon but I really want her to see Santa.
She did see santa at the light switch on but he was grumpy and didn’t even interact with her .
I know everyone loves santa but I don’t. I really don’t like santa.
The thing is until now I’ve never had to face santa but I don’t want Milly to have my fears.
I want her to enjoy life!
I mean being a child, being young, exploring, going on adventures.
I want her to travel, make new friends and not be scared of living.
Because when your young you want to become an adult, when you become an adult it’s shit and you want to be a child again.
Anyway back to what I was saying before I got side tracked I asked my dad to take a few photos!
I’m glad it was dark tho because if you could see my eyes you would see fear!
It’s honestly amazing what you will do for your kids!
What fears have you all faced for your babies and children ?
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