Sorry I’ve been a bit M.I.A recently but there has been so much drama in my life recently I haven’t had time to post.
Does it ever end?
I mean Seriously does it ever end?
I’m just drained.
Tired no make that exhausted.
I feel sh*t.
I look sh*t.
I’m expected to do everything.
Not just look after Milly.
Not just cleaning the house.
Not just doing the Washing.
I do everything and it’s too much I’m so stressed I cant even think.
It will get done.
I will help you.
It never gets done unless it’s done by me.
I very rarely get help.
Promises always get broken.
I’m even more stressed because my partners brother is now living with us.
Long story short his mum kicked him out.
So because he had nowhere to go we took him in.
So thats added to the mess.
Ive been struggling really badly looking after and being with Milly.
I’ve just gone on a really bad downward spiral.
Everything is too much.
It just feels like it will never end.
I’m not only physically exhausted I’m mentally exhausted.
It’s exhausting fighting a war in your head daily.
I can’t fight anymore.
I can’t look after milly alone.
I tried on Thursday I nearly had a breakdown.
Milly just screams whenever she is around me.
It breaks my heart every single time.
I’m just a completely broken person.
On the outside I’m a shell of a person but I smile..
On the inside I’m dead.
Thanks for reading